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Ate Helen's photoshoot

2011-08-08T22:34:00.000-07:00

Vivien and Matt.

Prep.

Prep.

Produced with my finest quality.
-John DeCastro

Boyfriend.

2010-10-13T20:37:00.000-07:00

Hi babe... Do you remember this? I mean, how could you not. This was on the first day, the first day I was willing to start a new foundation with you, and only you... You were packed with lots of personality and weed. I already knew we had chemistry. And we both knew we could make each other as happy as we possibly can. Why? Because we love each other. With all our tiny little hearts. I knew if I loved you, it would be my job and duty to make you happy as you possibly can. From that day on, you have always made me happy... I just hope I make you happy as you can be. I try my best and hardest everyday, and I honestly think I'm not doing the best as I can. Everything that has been happening is really getting to both of us... If trying harder is what it's going to take then that is NO problem. I just hope I'm doing what I can to make you happy. I've never felt so shut down. But that doesn't mean I'll give up. It means I'm going to try harder. I just want to make you as happy as you can be. You probably hate my guts. How did this happen? From the beginning we loved each other so much. I still love you with all my heart. I do make it seem as if I do too, because I always watch my actions with you. I'm ashamed of myself. I wasn't doing what I could to make you happy. That's on me. I understand if you're tired of me. I am a handful to you. But in all of this honestly, it just brings me back to that first day. Where I was best at making you happy. When I was worth seeing. I guess I'm not as good as I used to be... I wish I could be the best at making you happy. But I guess that isn't me anymore... Getting older is part of life, so is changing. I really feel as if I'm changing into someone I shouldn't. I still try to make you happy and you say I can. But do I make you as happy as that first day? The first day we knew it was our job and duty to make each other as happy as we could be. We've been through so much. We learn, move on and gain more happiness. Why does it feel as if the happiness you give me, isn't the happiness I give in return. For what you deserve. I love you so much Ryan Fu, I want to make you as eager to see me as I am to see you. I come to you to express who I really am... I wish you could express yourself without the doubts. Without the yelling. Without the profanity. Without the fighting and arguing. I want to make you as happy as you were on that first day. I'm not going to believe that I can't, because I believe I can do it. I also believe that we can make each other as happy we were on that first day. Do you? These 8 months have gone by fast. You could have changed your mind because you know who I really am now. I haven't changed my mind, because everyday when I see you, I see the man of my dreams. The man I love. The man who took me into his arms when I was sick. The man who brought me lunch at school when I forgot my lunch money. The man who was there. To love and appreciate. I hope everything we've been through hasn't changed your mind, because it will never change mine.

I will never let go, I will always be the one to fit into your arms and I will always be the only one getting the most butterflies.

I love you Ryan Fu.

8 Months.

2010-09-29T17:05:00.001-07:00

See where we are now in the past 8 months in this relationship :]

He looks different. I'm just getting older o__O

He's smoking posh. And its legal. So fuck off.

Illuminati contradictions :p

-John DeCastro

Americana and Party.

2010-08-08T20:47:00.000-07:00

FUN WEEKEND.

Rocco :p

Peace to the world.

African Decent.

Facebook Notifications.

Monkey!

Being illuminaties.

MAD.

Cute font right?

"What the fuck is she wearing?"

Flexible.

Ateh Hana's Birthday.

Panda.

GIMME.

Gay.

Mustache.

His Mustache flew away :[

-John DeCastro

From the Beginning.

2010-08-01T18:01:00.000-07:00

The spot.

All the apples and weed we went through.

All the best music.

All the M&M's in that little dispenser.

Being high as fuck.

Watching the sun set in your arms.

Always holding in all the excitement till I see you.

Always caught up in the rain.

That truck of yours.

Tiny kisses.

Always trippin' well me at least haha.

The best Sunday afternoons with you.

Driving on Grand.

Those talks...

I mean it's not just me who see's it.

I know you do too.

We have grown closer and closer to each other.

It's always getting better than how it was before.

We get really, really weak.

Then we gain the strength to pick each other back up.

We were always there for each other.

We never give up...

We have both hurt each other without the intention to.

Then we swallow up our pride because we know it shouldn't matter.

It's always treated as a competition at first but then we realize it's not necessary.

We let each other win in the end.

Because by the time things are settled, it will always turn out the way we believed it would.

Love,

John DeCastro

Vivien's Kick Back.

2010-07-31T16:17:00.000-07:00

I want beer.

Ryan Alvin Poo is an illuminati.

Me too... HAHA jk.

Oh you know just peeing in the same toilet :]

Sour Apple Pucker.

Cute.

Guido is baked.

Oh you know just owning Guido.

Nom nom nom nom.

AHEM... AIRPLANE FUEL. T___T

Hater.

Summer lovin'

-John DeCastro

New Bedsheets.

2010-07-30T18:12:00.000-07:00

Thanks Ryan!

Taken by Canon Rebel XS.

-John DeCastro

BEACHIN' IT.

2010-07-19T13:15:00.000-07:00

YEEEE. BEST WEEK SO FAR THIS SUMMER.

I love SUPREME.

My boyfriend drove my Lexus.

Nice portrait.

Diggin' my car meng :]

Fail.

Yay!

>:]

HI! MY TEETH ARE CROOKED!

"poooo"

I'm a hoe.

EARTH BENDING BITCHES.

Lovin' the backgrounds :]

-John DeCastro

Summer Time.

2010-07-05T17:02:00.000-07:00

YEEE SUMMER!

Got a new dog :]

Hi Rocco.

Goodnight :]

-John DeCastro

THE SPOT (3)

2010-06-25T00:56:00.001-07:00

Usual... WITH APRIL DIAZ!!!

UUMMM HIGH DEFINITION POO.

Counted kisses that day... 545.

Bye April!

-John DeCastro

The Spot (2)

2010-06-02T16:08:00.000-07:00

Doing the usual.

Creeper.

Peeing on a hill.

-John DeCastro

Irvine Spectrum.

2010-05-18T16:20:00.001-07:00

Went to Irvine spectrum with Ryan and had the BEST time :]

SAW A RAINBOW THAT WEEK.

Mood swings.

-____-

DOG IS LEGIT.

Cool fountains.

Him being cute :]

EEEEP.

Appetite located here.

All of them are really at a corner!

NOM NOM NOM.

LOVE.

Yum :]

Came out of here :]

Penis turtle!

Glory.

End.

-John DeCastro

I LOVE PUPPIES.

2010-05-11T18:00:00.000-07:00

I love my puppy dog.

Got him a special gift :]

He's so happy :]

In the sky!

He walked halfway to see me and took these on the way :D

In the wilderness.

He looked the cutest!

Found some tree fungus!

"The face of seeing the world crumble"

Had photo fun :D

-John DeCastro

APRIL'S FAILED BEACH TRIP.

2010-04-11T11:59:00.000-07:00

APRIL FAILS AT MAKING BEACH TRIPS :]

JK. It was pretty fun. BUT I FREEZED MY ASS OFF. MY TITTIES WERE HARD AS ROCKS!

Earlier that day I made a "I'm naked" video :]

Posted up at Cristine's.

ew.

AHEHE.

FOLLOWING THIS CAR.

Oriental drugs.

This would be a nice picture if she didn't have white stuff on her lip :]

COLD.

REST OF SPRING BREAK WITH THIS NIGGA.

I gave him plastic surgery.

My eyes are not that brown hehe.

Serious in bed ;]

He cooks for me :]

ISOLATION.

-John DeCastro

Special cupcakes.

2010-03-31T15:02:00.000-07:00

Hump day? I don't know but I love his cupcakes haha.

Those talks.

The reward.

-John DeCastro

Oh you know a new room.

2010-03-27T19:18:00.000-07:00

I remodeled my room and I think it's very cute now haha.

-John DeCastro

Nutella.

2010-03-27T19:11:00.000-07:00

I love Nutella and hiccis.

Mhm I'm mean.

-John DeCastro

Long week.

2010-02-02T17:15:00.000-08:00

BLEH. GO DIE.
Pretty phenomenal pictures.

Nichole's finger likes the next picture.

NOM NOM GO DIE.

CANON T1I >:]

My mickey mouse buddy.

Came up with dis.

I got coined by babe.

Sweet coffee.

WE ARE, UNDEFEATED.

-John DeCastro

Fast weekend.

2010-01-27T16:33:00.000-08:00

This was the sky outside my window.

Pedo truck :]

COWS?!

Skys have been cute lately :]

-John DeCastro

This regular day.

2010-01-17T19:14:00.000-08:00

School and the spot.

Stephen and Moon.

Tati!

-John DeCastro

Benefit Friday.

2010-01-09T12:56:00.000-08:00

TIS BE THE GOOD DAY SIR.

Get your own benefit.

FAT FACE.

SUSHI Q.

The vision we saw when we became hungry.

Oh you know just a giant stuffed penis.

Ambient.

Preparation after having sex. Sprinklers.

Win.

I love YanYan.

-John DeCastro

Justine photoshoot (2)

2010-01-07T19:24:00.000-08:00

I SWEAR THIS LIL BITCH.

Oh, just prepping this stupid slut.

Still prepping by getting caffeine in this bitch.

YIPPEE KAI YAY MUHFUCKA.

IMPACT.

YEEE FAVORITES.

DONE.

-John DeCastro

2009-2010.

2010-01-03T18:51:00.000-08:00

I HATED 2009 WITH A PASSION.
Hello sober 2010.
I put photos together because I gotta save room on my computer!

Not such a normal day when you wake up with this on your back.

Everyone in best years is on the Polaroid pics. Find yourself? Didn't think so >:]

Ritz and cream cheese. Couldn't taste it.

-John DeCastro

Christmas?

2009-12-25T13:52:00.001-08:00

NOT MUCH HAPPENED THIS CHRISTMAS.
JUST GOT BANKED,
AND GOT PRETTY HAPPY.

YAY BIKE.

Hello new Christmas car.

I randomly went to Orange County.

Oh man... The next morning was hell.....

But for sure.

-John DeCastro

BEGINING OF WINTER BREAK.

2009-12-18T20:45:00.000-08:00

HAPPILY WE START ALREADY.
YEEEEEEEE.
THAT TOOK FOREVER.

EVA! CYA. Transferring to Buena Vista.

Oh you know just check out Aiza when shes Jesus.

Epic defeat.

?

ELLO EVERYDAY SLUTTIES.

I am not a hardcore kid. -____-

Not even >:p

English Buddy!

"WHO'S THAT IN THE BACK?" HAHA.

"YOUR TIGERS RAWR."

AIZA SHOULD BE IN HERE BUT SHE TOOK IT.

Anjela and Lauren having competition to being fierce.

HELLO COMB OVER. (Justine and Aiza)

Hello.

>:] I'm so gay!

Lauren fails due to her ROCKSTAR.

HAPPY HOLIDAYS <333333.
-John DeCastro

Justine.

2009-12-17T19:59:00.000-08:00

Justine photo shoot.
PRETTY FUN.
Discussions based upon tumblr.

<33

Book a shoot? FREE.
-John DeCastro

Winter Cold Rain.

2009-12-12T14:04:00.000-08:00

THIS IS FUN.
I <33333 COFFEE.

I take pictures like this too much. It's okay its pretty cute.

Oh you know when I wish for you to love me.

Preposterous!

-John DeCastro

Birthday fun.

2009-11-22T22:06:00.000-08:00

DB'S DEFINITELY.
Pretty fun thanks to Cristine <33333333.

Photo fun thanks to Kathleen.

Ouchie.

Oh you know just sobin.

Yay.

Chelsea's legs :]

Pretty camera happy man.

Pretty weird man.

Fallin all over the place :]

HAHAHA.

Oh man.

Omg this felt weird.

Slept over.

-John DeCastro

PAC-MAN FIGHT.

2009-11-17T17:43:00.001-08:00

Yeah it was pretty obvious that pacquiao would win.
This party was pretty fun! Lots of hysterical laughs.
Broke the flash on my camera though :[

Getting ready.

Idk why I was holding my neck :p

Cristine and John

Sour cream?

Someone made me eat their rice.

Oh you know just kissing my fat faced auntie cause Im Frunk and Duck.

And I thought I was the creeper with the camera.

YEAH MAN.

Im. So. Disappointed.

These muhfuckas came.

Hello fellow DB.

I win.

I. WIN.

This is when I realized I broke the flash on my camera...T_____T

Legendary.

I WIN AGAIN.

Hello comb cover. We meet again.

:]

-John DeCastro

SOBER FRIDAY.

2009-11-14T10:20:00.000-08:00

SORT OF CAME TO EPIC FAIL.

But in the end was kinda fun haha.

On Cristine's bed with her parents trippin out.

Went to Ateh Lady's.

I WIN.

MUAHAHA.

OWIE. Fail.

CHELSEA GAMA POSING.

HELLO COMB OVERS AND CHEST PUMPERS. Ummmm frio LOL.

I win.

Hello homecoming pictures.

OKAY.

That shit made my breath smell.

Hello high face.

Rolling face.

O.D. face.

I win.

WHITE.

Creeper.

Tired.

Chelsea the hobo.

-John DeCastro

Halloween.

2009-11-06T16:12:00.000-08:00

THIS TIS WAS DA WEIRDEST FUCKIN HALLOWEEN EVER. Pretty fun though.
BUT TO THOSE WHO WEREN'T THERE. YOU MISSED OUT MAAAAN.

Okay this is when I was bored waiting for Cristine, Chelsea, and Kathleen.

LOLROFL I WIN NIGGA. HAHAHAHAHAHA.

-John DeCastro

2009-10-22T19:19:00.000-07:00

School is so much faster now without the physical education...
I'm worried about my body. I'M SO UNHEALTHY.

Cameras are as gay as you.

AYE YOU FADED BITCHES.

-John DeCastro

Dreaming.

2009-10-08T16:27:00.000-07:00

Today I had a very vivid yet scary dream based on falling into a spider web and being bitten by it. I woke up screaming. WOW HAHA.

To see a spider in your dream, indicates that you are feeling like an outsider in some situation. Or that you may want to keep your distance and stay away from an alluring and tempting situation. The spider is also symbolic of feminine power. Alternatively, a spider may refer to a powerful force protecting you against your self-destructive behavior. If you kill a spider, it symbolizes misfortune and general bad luck.

To dream that you are bitten by a spider, represents a conflict with your mother or some dominant female figure in your life. The dream may be a metaphor for a devouring mother or the feminine power to possess and entrap. Perhaps you are feeling trapped by some relationship

2009-09-29T21:48:00.001-07:00

CRISTINEJANE.BLOGSPOT.COM

Wedding/Vegas/Memorial.

2009-09-20T18:39:00.000-07:00

Photos from Paul Punzalan's wedding.
Vegas.
Patrice Duenas Memorial. (40th day)

Mr. Impatient.

LIMO.

Buzzin.

Ms. Fat Bitch Nigga.

White runs in the family.

Ateh Pam's man arms. Sorry. JKJK.

White!

White.

DRUUUUNK.

Oh man.

Oh man don't ask.

VEGAS. Hi papa.

OKAY Kathleen took this.

Buzzin.

AHHHHHHHH.

Fast reflexes man.

Subliminal man.

SO GLAD THAT'S DONE.

Glendale/Kick back

2009-09-08T14:19:00.000-07:00

Glendale with Aiza, Chelsea, and Ronald.
Kick back with Cristine, Julliene, and Chelsea Bong.

This was actually at Santa Clara.

GUESS WHO WORKS AT JOLLIEBEE. Haha my brother.

Maui Waui all day eer day.

NO.

Aiza photoshit.

Okay she was faded the whole time. DON'T TRIP MAN.

Still ganja.

He was sleepy.

AHEM Koreans and their sushi.

Americana.

Okay shes trippin.

HAHAHA.

This can be photography. HA jk.

husteling.

This was pretty cute man.

OKAY. Clubbing.

The both of them got us in.

Hookers.

YUP. These are those nights at my house.

OH HEY.

OKAY CHELSEA.

"Duuuuuuuuuuuude Chelsea is so fucked up!", Cristine said.

Keeping company.

"STOP"

White.

"Yeahh mann mango."

Wedding photos will be up sooooooon.

sadly.

2009-08-19T11:14:00.000-07:00

"I try to forget things by drowning them out with loads of distractions."

-Cristine Jane

And thats pretty much what makes me up.

2009-08-09T03:22:00.000-07:00

Mixed feelings and different emotions. My life is changing way too fast. It's making me tired to the fullest. God is planning so much for me. It's as if he's making me carry so much more for the life ahead of me. I just wish he could slow down a little. "It's getting kind of heavy..."

Damn. This is what "weak" is...
John DeCastro.

PS. Venting would be nice.

2009-08-08T02:41:00.001-07:00

LIFE HAS BEEN SO DIFFERENT...

Patrice.

2009-08-04T13:06:00.000-07:00

Patrice Duenas.
My half blood sister. Your in all our hearts and we all pray for you. We hope that when we will over come this stage of grief and misfortune, we will soon learn that you have valued in teaching us all. Responsibility, love, and especially moving forward. Going through these stages in reality really hurts all of us, even though it will benefit us so much. We are all happy to know your in a better place now.

I love you Pat-Rice.

Sincerely love with all my heart.
John DeCastro.

PS. There will be more where this came from...

2009-08-02T04:28:00.000-07:00

Lately Ive just been up to thinking about friends. Ive been having the worst vibes about people back then in my life that were big to me, are just trying to get over me
now and forget me completely. I don't know why I have those vibes running through me but I guess those impressions I had on those people will never be the same. I know I would never forget them, I just wish they didn't forget about me and about what I sacrificed for them. I feel as if it could be complicated for someone else to realize how much someone could do for you... Looking at the same play by play moments in my life has made me realize so much more about myself, and also the people Ive been involved with.

Not. Safe. For. Daytime.